Monday, April 18, 2011


Satan knows how to get to me.... plant seeds of doubt. Seeds of doubt about health, safety, finances, travel, anything really. The seeds of doubt turn into worry. Worry turns into anxiety. Anxiety turns to fear.

But the crazy thing is, most of the time I forget to turn to my Father for comfort and peace until it gets to that point of fear. Oh, how I wish I could turn to Him at the first doubting thought that enters my mind! How much trouble and fear I would be kept from if only I would turn to Him.

It's a vicious cycle: doubt to worry, worry to anxiety, anxiety to fear; turn to Him, He gives me peace. Life is good. I forget that I need Him. I desire to be independent and live life by myself. And then, something happens.... something at home, at school, with family, with friends.Something unexpected. It brings me crashing down to fear and doubt. This is when I remember that I am dependent on my loving Heavenly Father who is waiting for me to turn back to Him, to allow Him to hold and carry me, to protect and comfort.

Some verses that He's given me:

"Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him." ~Psalm 34:8

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful." ~Colossians 3:15

He's also reminded me of this song my sister-in-law shared with me last summer while I was in Taiwan:

He's Always Been Faithful To Me
Great is thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me
Morning by morning I wake up to find

The power and comfort of God’s hand in mine

Season by season I watch Him, amazed

In awe of the mystery of His perfect ways

All I have need of, His hand will provide

He’s always been faithful to me.

I can’t remember a trial or a pain

He did not recycle to bring me gain

I can’t remember one single regret

In serving God only, and trusting His hand

All I have need of, His hand will provide

He’s always been faithful to me.

This is my anthem, this is my song

The theme of the stories I’ve heard for so long

God has been faithful, He will be again

His loving compassion, it knows no end

All I have need of, His hand will provide

He’s always been faithful, He’s always been faithful

He’s always been faithful to me.